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doitbetrue : Hey dude, Sup? You probably won't respond to this--which is probably for the best, as I don't have much vested interest in decoding your poorly-constructed and thinly-veiled metaphors. Don't you have anything better to do than have prissy little slapfights with your ex-girlfriend over the internet? Surely you can spend your time more productively than tersely rubbing your black leather dracula collar between your fingertips as you flood the internet with yet another tale of inane abstraction and sad desparation. You are not her protector, nor are you her savior or her hero. You've neglected that responsibility for years. Her job is not your concern, nor is her future. Don't worry, dude, I've got it all under control. We are all trying to be well-adjusted grown-ups, regardless of how much black we wear. I think you should accept the fact that your role in her life has been diminished to nothing more than an overly aggressive child pounding on the walls and clamoring for some sort of attention while the adults are trying to have a civil conversation in the next room. The only reason I feel like I have carte blanche to speak to you on this subject is simply because you feel as if you still have a certain right to interject your shitty opinions (cleverly guised as shitty prose) into our lives, despite the fact that you have been asked to abstain on several occasions. You have neither right nor reason to assume that I am a negligent partner based on your overwhelmingly sheltered view on "how things should be." Based on the knowledged I've gained about you, you are no paragon of virtue, beacon of morality, a last bastion of hope, or whatever glimmering image of yourself you are carrying this week. You operate under the veil of "caregiver," yet your incentive is to belittle, rather than nurture. I intended this to be a lot longer. I intended to say a lot more about your character, but reflecting on everything that you seem to be, there really is not much to talk about. You are a garden variety sociopath, who hides behind aggression, manipulation, and a charismatic front rather than developing into a reasonable person. I have unfortunately never had the displeasure of personally interacting with you, but I have luckily been privy to a number of phone calls between you two. I feel, also, as if this lends me some sort of communicative hall pass in this matter. It has helped me glean insight into the relationship you two used to share. She will say something--you will say the opposite thing progressively louder and angrier. She starts to get sad. She hangs up on you. You call her back and grudgingly apologize. Then things get interesting. As she regains her composure, you two speak civilly, casually, and almost intimately about the little nuances of life that, obviously nobody but you cares about. Then she says something you disagree with. I'll stop here, but this is my point. The entire time, I am sitting next to her. I can hear both of you. I began to convince myself that I was an impassive listener caught between two lovers bickering over the phone. Again, that is not your place anymore, nor will it ever be. You belittle, you abuse, and then you soften up to draw her back in. I have come to understand that your argumentative style can be reduced to "I AM LOUDER THAN YOU ARE," and unfortunately, she has become way too civil to participate in this any longer. Where you previously squashed her self-esteem and made her feel like less-than-a-person, I have successfully rebuilt. If my undoing of your hard work offends you, just pretend that I apologize. In conclusion: This is our life. There is no room for you anymore. So, please, stay out of it. I am sorry for your loss. Now go get married you silly boy :) Kisses, Trey.
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I love you. I changed my mind, I don't love you.
Hey, I'll leave my girlfriend for you because I love you. Oh, wait, I found an excuse not to: blaming your for the same fuck-ups I made, but refusing to accept that the past will ALWAYS come back to haunt me.
You're fucking someone else? I was too, but you are the only one at fault at any point in time.
I willingly disown you and say terrible things in anger whenever you question my authority, but do not allow you the same luxury, because you are "universally stupid".
I'm buying a house with a woman I do not love to be "normal", because I am unable to stand looking at the world with optimistic eyes and see there is a world of experience before me. I choose instead to make contradictory statements about how much I hate the world depending on what day of the week is it.
I also make vaguely cryptic statements about you in order to know you're still paying attention, but deny they were about you. OR. I will say that I need a release from the stress that you are more than obviously always putting on me-- I need SOMEONE to blame for how poorly and pathetically I'm living out.
I claimed to have helped you find a job, when in reality I groped you up your skirt when driving around. I also blame you for that.
I also claimed to have helped you find a place to live, when in reality I was not speaking to you when you chose your place of residence, nor was I curious as to where you were living until I wanted to fuck you again.
I fucked you on my girlfriend's couch, but tell her how crazy, rude, and obinoxious you are instead of admitting that I continued to fuck you until just before I proposed to her.
I give you obviously unresearched opinions on anything you are remotely excited about in order to have a sense of dominance over anything you do. I need to be running the show at any given point in time. I have admitted this on many occassions.
When I read on your myspace that you'd "died", instead of calling you or Michael, I called the ex boyfriend you do not speak with anymore. When asked why this was, I said that I only had numbers in my phone of people to be invited to my funeral. To clarify, I would not invite YOU to my funeral, but I would invite one of the ex boyfriends of yours that I dislike the most. To add insult to injury, I claimed to refuse to add your current boyfriend's number to my phone because I don't just want ANYONE being invited to my funeral.
Beyond this, I insult you more and more every day, trying to tempt you into reacting because I need to feel strong again. I am not strong without you to make feel weak.
I'm not sure you understand that every time you make these posts, I will respond and I swear to you that it is only a matter of time before I outright say what will ultimately be your fall. Stop testing me. I am not your bitch, and I am certainly not interested in your "truths", which solely depend on your mood. I am not your emotional caretaker, and I am no longer obligated to give a fuck about how you are feeling anymore. Stop.
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